In case we decide, or it is decided for us, to have more children,  I feel that it is necessary to write my future self a note to be reminded what things will be like the first 3 weeks post partum and how I will survive. Here we go:

Hey you. You exhausted, slightly smelly, old mascara dusted eyes, moody, you. The next 3 weeks may feel, and may be, some of the most physically and mentally difficult weeks of your young life.


The birth. You may have chosen to have another C-section or you may have done a VBAC, either way, don’t feel guilty for your decision. Try to ignore those that make you feel like whatever you chose was wrong. While you work through that mental mind game, whatever way you did choose to give birth will cause you great pain.  Like, lots of pain. And those pain meds that feel glorious for the moment? They will impregnate your bowels to allow you to enjoy the feeling of a VBAC, without an epidural, for the first few weeks post baby. Take the stool softeners. Eat Medamucel crackers like they are candy. Drink prune juice like it is that beer you craved all pregnancy. Look forward to the sapository like a baby-free night on the town. Yay you!! Try, please for the love of God, to quickly wean off the major pain meds. And when you are in the hospital,  some of the first days major pains will be caused by gas. Ask the nurse for gas meds immediately. You’re welcome.


The first days home. You will remember how hard you felt things were with just the first baby. Then you will remember how truly hard it was going from one to two. You didn’t realize you can’t lift your toddler for 6 weeks or do anything around the house for fear of activating pain and the dreaded post partum period soaking through your sexy granny panties or mesh tear away boy shorts from the hospital with your medical grade 16″ long pad. Hang in there.  Enlist family to help at least the first 3 weeks. Use a step stool to assist your toddler up and down where you can’t lift. And rest. Seriously. Stop trying to do chores. Stop bending down and lifting things that “are probably fine”. Limit the Costco trips. I know it feels great to get out, but it’s not fun to keep bleeding.


The moods. The thoughts. The tears. The confusion. The “baby blues”, “sundowning” – is real. So real and so horrid. You will feel panicky. You will feel hopeless. You will feel pain. You will feel silly. You will feel frustrated. You will feel ashamed. Lost. Sad. It will feel foreign. It will be terrifying that it could last. Lucky for you, it should only last about the first two weeks. Some others won’t be so lucky as it may last longer. Talk to your doctor if it goes beyond 3 weeks. Remember that with your first you didn’t have this at all, so it could be fine! But above all, remember you aren’t going crazy. Your hormones are just intense. And they will regulate.


The sleeping. Or the non-sleeping. You will be a human milk machine. The baby will not have a schedule. They will demand food, be irregular in timing to eat, how long they eat, and when they sleep. They may be great for two days and turn into a horrible, confusing, demanding little love bug the next two days. And when I say days, I mean 24 hours. Not like 9 to 5 kinda thing. Round the clock. You may only get sleep with the baby on your chest as you lay completely flat, built up with pillow around you for fear of the baby rolling off you in your sleep. It’s ok. Remember number one? This too shall pass. It may take over 15 months like your first, but it will eventually. At least that’s what they say.


The Googling. You will become the best researcher for the first 3 weeks (and beyond,  let’s be honest). Your Google searches will mimic a hypocondriac’s. Your new babies doctor’s file may become thick with visits because “the baby is breathing nasally”. Remember it’s all okay. Knowledge feels like power and peace of mind at this time. But remember to take caution. You may find yourself on a website convincing you that your newborn needs reconstructive chin surgery. Yes, that was my reality for a sleepless night. You have insurance. Your doctor won’t tell you she thinks your crazy, although she may think it. If they tell you this, find a new pediatrician.


The house will be dirty. The dogs will drive you crazy. You will feel overwhelmed – a lot. Someone will need you at every second in your house. Remember,  you need you too. Try to pee when you need to, put the baby down to free your hands for at least 15 minutes a day, play with your other kids the best you can,  watch shows all day on those days you just need it, and remember to enjoy this time too. They are only this little once.  And each day, remember you all will never be as young as you are that day. So hug them a little closer, take deep breaths, and rock that crusty mascara and greasy hair. It’s called Motherhood. And it looks good on you.


One week ago our family of three became four with the addition of little baby G. This last week has been all consuming of every emotion available in the human body and physically so rough for this repeat c-section mama. But one week feels like a great accomplishment right now.

Little M has taken quite well to her new baby brother – a truly answered prayer. Sure, she has her moments, but we all have many times this week. She is such a trooper. Brad has been an incredible help, which always makes me fall more in love with him. My mom has taken on the challenge of staying with us which has been a HUGE blessing. Sometimes a mama still needs her mama.

We are all adjusting to this new life which both terrifies and excites me. I’m exhausted, recovering, can’t lift my daughter for 6 weeks {still trying to figure out the logistics of that between changing diapers and naps and mornings in and out of a crib}, and overall so in love with this beautiful baby boy.

As I embark on this new journey and write most posts during middle of the night feedings, please keep us in your prayers. Pray for a very speedy recovery, for my emotional wellbeing, and for our new life as a family of four.


By the way, if you are wanting to get an adorable personalized baby gift, I found the customized blanket and beanie in the first picture through Pearl Pear Designs on Etsy. She was so wonderful to work with and created the design with very minimal direction. We love it!!


I have been searching far and wide for the perfect personalized necklace to showcase the love for my children. I have been browsing local shops, looking at charms with initials, and browsing Etsy.

I recently saw some of my favorite family members when they were in town and loved their gold bar necklaces they were wearing. They informed me that one of their clients from their hair salon had made them and gave me her Etsy shop information.

I started to chat with Shop Luca on Etsy explaining what I was looking for and the dear made me exactly what I wanted!! A perfect gold bar necklace with “MADISON♡GAVIN” hand stamped on the bar. Start the swooning.

It came pretty quickly and receiving this cute little package was such a treat! I wanted to give myself a special little gift, and something to celebrate the upcoming birth of my son. Who says you can’t give yourself a “birth (push) gift”?

I have worn it everyday since I received it and love how it always reminds me of my littles. If you are looking for a great gift this Christmas or something special for yourself or a friend, I highly suggest checking out Shop Luca on Etsy!


DSC_4013To say the birth of my daughter hasn’t been one of the biggest highlights of my life would be a complete lie. Anyone would know that. I over-picture, over-talk about, over-love my little girl. She has been an absolute joy to raise these last 2.5 years. We knew we wanted more than one child, so when we were ready we tried for number 2. Needless to say, we were successful! 

This pregnancy has been completely different from the first. Morning sickness, discomfort, insomnia, sciatic pain…all while still working full time and raising a toddler. But one thing has remained constant; the questioning of what’s to come. The transition for our family, for little M, who the world revolves around, and the question a lot of mom’s going from one to two may have: how can I love another child as much as I have loved the first?

Little M is just so special. She brings joy to all she meets, greets every stranger, throws tantrums like you wouldn’t believe, is super witty and expressive, loves to “shake it”, sing, make goofy faces and give a hug and kiss until “mmkay, all done”. She is smart, playful, stubborn, and a sponge.

I do worry about how she will be as a big sister. I pray over the bond her and little G will have. I pray over her heart and mind being open and understanding right off the bat with this transition. I pray over our family as we prepare financially. And I pray over little G that he is a calm, chill guy who will just fit right in with the crew. I pray over my husband as he takes on a lot of responsibility for our family – that God blesses him in his career and provides for our family as he has so done in the past.

I am looking forward to all the good times that are coming. I am praying for strength and patience during all the hard days that are coming. I am saying ‘thank you’ for all the blessings we have and are given daily. DSC_7860lr

All during my pregnancy I craved a fresh sandwich with loads of ham and turkey. The problem? You can’t have ham and turkey while pregnant unless you want to scorch it first and make it like a weird piece of leather. No thanks, I’ll pass.

Since we had about a million camping trips planned this summer, I needed to come up with a lunch meal that would be easy, fast and something that would pack in the cooler well. Enter the most delicious Chicken Salad. I used a recipe off the can, but added in a few of my own additions, and this completely hit the spot! DSC_3920


(2) 12.5 oz cans of Chunk chicken breast, drained

2-4 Celery sticks, cleaned and diced

1 cup dried cranberries

1 to 1.5 cup Mayonnaise (to taste and texture)

2 Tbsp Honey

1 Tbsp Honey dijon mustard

Salt and pepper to taste

1/2 cup pecans (optional)

1 head of romaine lettuce

12 croissant rolls


  1. Drain chicken breast and place aside in large bowl. I usually take a fork, or whatever I’m using the mix, and start to smash and separate the chicken as I put it in.
  2. Dice the celery sticks into small pieces and add to the chicken.
  3. Add the cranberries and pecans.
  4. Add the mayonnaise and honey and start to mix all together. I sometimes add more mayonnaise as preferred to taste and texture.
  5. Add the salt and pepper, mix again, taste. Add more if you need to!
  6. Chill for an hour or more.
  7. Cut open the croissant rolls for a sandwich with the lettuce, or use the lettuce as a lettuce wrap for a delicious, healthy meal!